Today I was cleaning my drawer, cause we purchased a new cupboard to hold our stuff. Now, this cupboard also serves as a platform to rest our T.V on. Well, all with the cleaning, I knew it wouldn’t be possible to shove all my stuff into this cupboard.
Throwing away my school memories is hard enough, throwing away the part of my life tied to someone else I love is horrible. But yet, we have to do it. Because I’ve come to realize we cannot always hold on to the people we hold most dear. There are different things that tear us apart – birth, fights, differences, situations, consequences and death.
But just because now we are not together, and are far off from their lives, it doesn’t mean that we start regarding that chapter of our lives as painful. or worse, make the present unbearable because of their farewells.
NO. Because in that little phase that they have been with us, they have contributed a part of forever to our lives. And those moments are the moments we have to cherish, because “Nothing’s ever built to last” (-Greenday) and once in a while, stings break. Holding on becomes difficult and letting go is the only option left.
But this isn’t a consolation. It is evidence that better stuff will replace it. That better opportunity will come in the most unexpected way. If it was meant to be, they will return.
But don’t be expectant. Don’t stop living your life.
Because it does hurt.
And impossible to forget. Or forgive.
But time can heal almost anything.
-And chocolates help too!
The old scars will vanish, and new ones will take their place. And if we leave this world unharmed, it’s not victory, it’s cowardly- it’s doing nothing worthwhile.
During all this time, if there is one thing to hold on to – it’s yourself. Smile.
“It’s everything you wanted, it’s everything you don’t
It’s one door swinging open and one door swinging closed
Some prayers find an answer
Some prayers never know
We’re holding on and letting go.”